Carla, thank you so much for reading me Monday night with such short notice. You are absolutely phenomenal. It is always fun to do a reading with you because you feel like you are talking to your lifelong best friend who knows as much about you as you know yourself (or more about you) … and is always willing to tell you about it, too. You always help me to keep in perspective that there is nothing to fear but fear itself. I have a smile on my face and absolutely beaming after my reading.
We started off with my concerns about moving out, and it is a wise idea – or not. You told me that this is something I should have done a long time ago. That was when we started talking about my fears and how I had allowed them to hold me back. I have been afraid of especially how my mom would react if I moved out. You told me that she is actually secretly excited about it, and so is my dad for that matter, and both are wishful that I would. That alone was a huge relief to me.
You also talked about how especially with my mom, she allows her own fears to become so huge and believes in them so much, it is actually making them come true. I have acted as a buffer between my parents and their relationship, as well. I knew this too, but hearing it come from you made it sound much different. You also told me my mom at times can be envious of how easy everything appears to be for me. This has helped me have a different perspective too, and not take certain things so personally, as well as help understand certain behaviors from her.
We also talked at length about how tied together my mom and I are and that I really need to work on cutting that tie a little bit each day. You are right – that it is best for both of us. We also chatted about fears I have over my parent’s relationship and how it would be affected by me moving out… You told me it would be good because they will be forced to adjust to me not being in the middle all the time. They will actually have to deal with each other, and “fight it out like two little kids.” I am still smiling about that.
You also said they both need to grow up. You’re not the first to tell me that either- it is true they do. We also discussed that they will be forced to work on their relationship with each other without having the option of putting me in between, which I have allowed them to do. You told me to stop giving my mom an “audience.” The more I give her an audience the more she will keep behaving “ugly” and the more it will make people tired of dealing with it. You’re right, too. It’s not a pretty way to behave.
You said the house I asked about the possibility of renting will work out and I will be moving out by September 1st. (No excuses either – I have to get on the ball with this one.) It is past time I have done this. I must admit I’m not as nervous about it now, just more excited! I will keep you updated on that one.
The next topic led to my current relationship with my boyfriend. At one point, you told me I needed to stop being so afraid because I was turning into my mom. You are the second person to tell me this in less than a month. YES – I’m listening now. You also said to pick your battles, don’t nitpick every little thing and to let the little stuff just roll off. I am very excited about you telling me I am definitely in a very good relationship for me, and that it holds promise.
You asked me if I wanted to know more, and I said – actually no. (I did surprise myself with that reply too.) You said that was a good thing as a relationship is not just for the “end goal.” You also talked about how my boyfriend and mom don’t really like each other – you are absolutely correct again. It’s interesting the reason behind it though – she doesn’t like him because she feels like he is taking me away from her, and you confirmed that too. He doesn’t like her for similar reasons. She should be willing to be happy for me and be excited I’m in good relationship and not thinking I’m being taken away from her.
I loved when you told me ‘Don’t speak’ – by No Doubt. You said it in context to when my boyfriend and I have recently talked a bit about marriage or engagement – he gets cold feet. That was when you replied that you would be worried if he didn’t. It either means there is something wrong, or he is gay… After all he is male. So just believing in the inevitability and not having to talk about it.
You helped me understand he can get too serious at times and to make light of it – laugh about it – so he can see it, too. You gave a visual with it about him being in a “dungeon” and asking if “he needed any food down there?” Also, to stand up to him at times. He can have a strong personality and start ranting about something that has nothing to do with me and to just walk away from it.
You said – “Don’t be the ball of yarn for the cat to play with.”
I like the use of visuals and stories. It helps them stick in my head.
My final question was about if I will have children, or if I have put too much physical stress on my body because of the level of activity in my job. You told me, “Yes, I will.” I’ll have a baby boy, and he is very tall and might be a basketball player, he’s that tall, but you thought just one baby. I will have to let you know on that one too, but no time soon.
You also mentioned any ‘irregularities’ are from mental stress I have put in place – not physical. You always act as confirmation for me with things I think might be true, or others have said – and you help me to really listen to them. Your accuracy for me has always been fantastic and a huge help. I’m sure it will be this time as much as it has been with the other readings you have done for me.
I now have a smile on my face, instead of fear in my heart. Thank you for helping me realize I have been letting my fears stand in my way.
Carla – you are a very most amazing and magical person. You always make me feel so comfortable and thanks for reminding me to breathe. My sincerest thanks to you. I also loved talking on Skype! I know we will be talking again soon. Again, thank you so very much.